I started to write about how irritating these pre-labor contractions are getting, but I didn't feel like hearing myself complain.
Instead, I am focusing on the joy that the Lord brings. What joy is available to me!
Parenting has been tough lately. House selling has been tough. Packing has been slow. Baby has been low. (Now I'm writing a song.)
But the Lord is the strength and joy of my life. I just forget that sometimes. I tend to become too distracted with the minor details of life and forget to focus on the bigger picture. He is above all and knows all. He sees my struggles. He knows my pain. His hands are reaching out to me.
So, as I wait for this waiting to be over, I know that His joy will come. What reassurance I have in that.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Monday, August 30, 2010
More Crafty Crafty Stuff and A Very Long Day
So, yesterday I had a sudden hot flash. It was weird. I thought I was going to go insane. Then, my feet swelled up and I developed some lovely cankles. I had just been noticing how skinny my ankles had stayed throughout this pregnancy. Well, hello, water retention. I cannot hide from the loveliness of the last few weeks of pregnancy. The cankles are still there today and don't look like any amount of propping up with help. I am officially ready to have this baby.
Today was a very long day. A long day of feeling like a failing parent, being frustrated, irritable, swollen, and just plain crazy. Aidan must sense the impending change because he is getting beyond difficult to manage right now. I feel like all I did today was discipline, or not discipline him when I needed to. He got a chair, climbed onto the counter, got some matches, lit one, and dropped it onto a candle. This happened while I turned my back for all of 60 seconds. I think it must have scared him a bit and hurt his finger a little because he was sure upset about it, as was I. I felt like a horrible parent, then I felt enraged. I am hoping that he is cured of that particular curiosity, but I fear not.
Nesting is my new passion in life. This afternoon I made granola and muffins. I also did 5 loads of laundry, made dinner, cooked up a bunch of ground beef and chicken, went grocery shopping, cleaned out the freezer, tidied up the pantry, and cleaned up the kitchen. I am now officially pooped, well sort of. I still have a few things to do....like eat cereal and get my crafting on. I am working on a blanket for the little one and it is not quite halfway done yet. I also have a few other projects in the works as well.
Today was a very long day. A long day of feeling like a failing parent, being frustrated, irritable, swollen, and just plain crazy. Aidan must sense the impending change because he is getting beyond difficult to manage right now. I feel like all I did today was discipline, or not discipline him when I needed to. He got a chair, climbed onto the counter, got some matches, lit one, and dropped it onto a candle. This happened while I turned my back for all of 60 seconds. I think it must have scared him a bit and hurt his finger a little because he was sure upset about it, as was I. I felt like a horrible parent, then I felt enraged. I am hoping that he is cured of that particular curiosity, but I fear not.
Nesting is my new passion in life. This afternoon I made granola and muffins. I also did 5 loads of laundry, made dinner, cooked up a bunch of ground beef and chicken, went grocery shopping, cleaned out the freezer, tidied up the pantry, and cleaned up the kitchen. I am now officially pooped, well sort of. I still have a few things to do....like eat cereal and get my crafting on. I am working on a blanket for the little one and it is not quite halfway done yet. I also have a few other projects in the works as well.
Yesterday
I missed blogging yesterday because we went to church and then to my parent's house for the day. We didn't make it home until around 11 pm and I was tired and had extremely swollen feet and ankles.
This is what I was doing yesterday all day:
There is one more I am still working on. My sweet sister helped me out and it was so much fun. I had bought a bunch of plain onesies at a garage sale for like .25 each and the remnant fabrics were 50% off as well. I loved how inexpensive it was to design these and I think they turned out super cute. The one with the letter "n" does give a little clue as to what we might be naming her, but we are waiting to reveal that when she is born. We have been back and forth and not 100% sure for quite awhile, but we think we may have narrowed it down. That could all change when we finally meet her though.
This is what I was doing yesterday all day:
There is one more I am still working on. My sweet sister helped me out and it was so much fun. I had bought a bunch of plain onesies at a garage sale for like .25 each and the remnant fabrics were 50% off as well. I loved how inexpensive it was to design these and I think they turned out super cute. The one with the letter "n" does give a little clue as to what we might be naming her, but we are waiting to reveal that when she is born. We have been back and forth and not 100% sure for quite awhile, but we think we may have narrowed it down. That could all change when we finally meet her though.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Home Again
Seth got home at 12:30 a.m. So happy he is here and that he will be here until the baby is born.
Aidan woke up at 1:30, 2:00, 2:30, 3:00, and 4:15 a.m. Seth got up the first 2 times, but didn't hear him the other times. Let's just say that I got little to no sleep last night. I also almost got stuck in the rocking chair with a 30 pound sleeping toddler in my arms. It was no easy feat to maneuver my big pregnant self out of the chair. Apparently, all of this waking had to do with "monsters." We learned this fact this morning from the little stinker himself. He wasn't sick, thank God, but "scared of monsters." Great! This is going to be a new challenge to walk through.
We took a nice family walk to the park. The breeze was so nice even though the sun was hot. I had lots of contractions.
Had our first showing of the house this afternoon. It was a no go. Happy to have a clean house though.
Ate dinner with Seth's family to celebrate his Dad's b-day. Had ice cream from Sonic and came home.
Aidan pooped out into his carseat.
Seth and I watched Friday Night Lights while I worked on some fun crochet projects. Made another super cute headband and started working on a diaper cover.
So tired and hoping for sleep to come easily tonight.
Aidan woke up at 1:30, 2:00, 2:30, 3:00, and 4:15 a.m. Seth got up the first 2 times, but didn't hear him the other times. Let's just say that I got little to no sleep last night. I also almost got stuck in the rocking chair with a 30 pound sleeping toddler in my arms. It was no easy feat to maneuver my big pregnant self out of the chair. Apparently, all of this waking had to do with "monsters." We learned this fact this morning from the little stinker himself. He wasn't sick, thank God, but "scared of monsters." Great! This is going to be a new challenge to walk through.
We took a nice family walk to the park. The breeze was so nice even though the sun was hot. I had lots of contractions.
Had our first showing of the house this afternoon. It was a no go. Happy to have a clean house though.
Ate dinner with Seth's family to celebrate his Dad's b-day. Had ice cream from Sonic and came home.
Aidan pooped out into his carseat.
Seth and I watched Friday Night Lights while I worked on some fun crochet projects. Made another super cute headband and started working on a diaper cover.
So tired and hoping for sleep to come easily tonight.
Friday, August 27, 2010
Dear Baby Girl
Today was a long day. It is now 11:15 pm and I am just now sitting down to write you this letter. Your daddy is on his way home from South Carolina and I am afraid I will not be able to wait up for him.
I have been thinking about you a lot lately. Wondering what in the world you will be like, look like, smell like, etc... I love looking at your little clothes and imagining your soft baby skin. It is truly getting hard to wait to meet you because I am just so excited about you.
You've been very still in there today baby girl, but you let me know you are there, waiting to meet me too, with your little hiccups and feet pressing against my side.
Today, I finished getting some of your things ready and it was fun. I plan to pack our bags for the hospital this weekend, just to be prepared. I also managed to walk to the park with your big brother and carry him part way home. You made it a little difficult to do so, but I managed well enough and just had to deal with an achy back for the rest of the evening. It probably didn't help that I scrubbed the bathroom and baked cookies after Aidan went to bed.
Sweet little baby, I have now shaved and painted my toe nails (to the best of my ability) and am ready for your arrival. I know that it may still be a few weeks, but at least my feet look fresh and pretty. I made you a few headbands tonight too and I can't wait for you to try them.
Tomorrow is a big day for me because we have someone coming to see our house, the house you will never really know. It is kinda sad because this will be the home we bring you to, but only for a short while. You will start your life in South Carolina, a new place for us all.
I want you to keep growing healthy and strong and come when you are good and ready...just don't make me wait too long. :)
I love you,
Mom
I have been thinking about you a lot lately. Wondering what in the world you will be like, look like, smell like, etc... I love looking at your little clothes and imagining your soft baby skin. It is truly getting hard to wait to meet you because I am just so excited about you.
You've been very still in there today baby girl, but you let me know you are there, waiting to meet me too, with your little hiccups and feet pressing against my side.
Today, I finished getting some of your things ready and it was fun. I plan to pack our bags for the hospital this weekend, just to be prepared. I also managed to walk to the park with your big brother and carry him part way home. You made it a little difficult to do so, but I managed well enough and just had to deal with an achy back for the rest of the evening. It probably didn't help that I scrubbed the bathroom and baked cookies after Aidan went to bed.
Sweet little baby, I have now shaved and painted my toe nails (to the best of my ability) and am ready for your arrival. I know that it may still be a few weeks, but at least my feet look fresh and pretty. I made you a few headbands tonight too and I can't wait for you to try them.
Tomorrow is a big day for me because we have someone coming to see our house, the house you will never really know. It is kinda sad because this will be the home we bring you to, but only for a short while. You will start your life in South Carolina, a new place for us all.
I want you to keep growing healthy and strong and come when you are good and ready...just don't make me wait too long. :)
I love you,
Mom
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Scattered
So, I'm at a loss for a good subject as I've been doing this blogging thing like every day now and am so not creative.
Plus, for some reason, my brain has withered away to nothingness on account of the baby I carry in my womb and I cannot for the life of me remember simple things....Like, for instance, taking a diaper with me to Aidan's Dr. appointment just in case he had peed like 5 gallons into the one he had on and I looked like I neglect my child.
My child is so funny though. Even if his mother does forget to change his ridiculously full diaper before taking him to the pediatrician. When the doc came in the room, he said, "Listen to my heart," followed by, "Check my ears." When asked what his favorite food was he said, "Candy!"....and "Broccoli." For the love child. You don't eat either thing that often, but at least you said something healthy after an enthusiastic vote for candy. He also managed to spill a bunch of water, fall off the table, and eat half the sucker stick along with the sucker. He did great getting his shots though. So brave and so sweet. He even said he'd go back again.
I tried my hand at sewing again today, but got a little stuck while trying to figure out how to put a zipper into the lining of the purse and just gave up and took a nap. It was a great idea!
The rest of the day was pretty blah and humdrum. I mean, we ate food, talked, I went to Wal-mart again to find some sort of diaper my child won't pee out of in the night (Aidan woke up for the 3rd time in a row absolutely soaking wet).
My mom and I started watching a sad movie about World War II and smuggling children out of the ghetto. I was crocheting a blanket for the baby so I could try and distract myself from crying too much, but it just plain got to me and we opted to turn it off and go to bed.
Seth gets home tomorrow night. Can't believe the week without him is almost over. It went by so much faster than the last time.
I felt really uncomfortably pregnant today. Hoping for some renewed energy tomorrow.
Plus, for some reason, my brain has withered away to nothingness on account of the baby I carry in my womb and I cannot for the life of me remember simple things....Like, for instance, taking a diaper with me to Aidan's Dr. appointment just in case he had peed like 5 gallons into the one he had on and I looked like I neglect my child.
My child is so funny though. Even if his mother does forget to change his ridiculously full diaper before taking him to the pediatrician. When the doc came in the room, he said, "Listen to my heart," followed by, "Check my ears." When asked what his favorite food was he said, "Candy!"....and "Broccoli." For the love child. You don't eat either thing that often, but at least you said something healthy after an enthusiastic vote for candy. He also managed to spill a bunch of water, fall off the table, and eat half the sucker stick along with the sucker. He did great getting his shots though. So brave and so sweet. He even said he'd go back again.
I tried my hand at sewing again today, but got a little stuck while trying to figure out how to put a zipper into the lining of the purse and just gave up and took a nap. It was a great idea!
The rest of the day was pretty blah and humdrum. I mean, we ate food, talked, I went to Wal-mart again to find some sort of diaper my child won't pee out of in the night (Aidan woke up for the 3rd time in a row absolutely soaking wet).
My mom and I started watching a sad movie about World War II and smuggling children out of the ghetto. I was crocheting a blanket for the baby so I could try and distract myself from crying too much, but it just plain got to me and we opted to turn it off and go to bed.
Seth gets home tomorrow night. Can't believe the week without him is almost over. It went by so much faster than the last time.
I felt really uncomfortably pregnant today. Hoping for some renewed energy tomorrow.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
254 days down
I have been pregnant just that long. Pretty crazy, huh?
Well, today was quite the busy little day.
Woke up super early to Aidan, soaking wet again. Mom helped me change sheets and I made him get back in bed. He complied and stayed in there for another hour or so. I trudged back to bed and fell fast asleep, waking to find a completely fed child contentedly reading books with Mimi. Yippee!
Got a nice long shower. So nice. So refreshing. So private.
Took off to Wal-mart and then my midwife appointment. Appointment went great. No cervical check, but good conversation and such. My group B strep test came back negative so that was good.
Ran home to check on things and make myself some lunch. Sat in silence. Uploaded pictures to blog.
Then I treated myself to some slow browsing of the aisles at Joann Fabrics and Hobby Lobby. I don't remember the last time I did that, but it was heavenly. I picked up a bunch of super cheap, super cute fabric remnants and some other crafty supplies and headed back to my mom's house.
We went to the Farmer's Market, then came home to eat our fresh veggies. Aidan had a few meltdowns at dinner.
Took Aidan to the park after dinner and then he was shipped off to bed early.
I decided to get my sewing machine out and try to finish a purse I am making. Being my very first sewing project, and being rather new at this whole thing, I had quite the time of it, but accomplished a few things before throwing my hands up in the air and calling it a night.
So, now I sit.... 254 days pregnant and still a very horrible seamstress. We will have to remedy both these things.
Goodnight.
Well, today was quite the busy little day.
Woke up super early to Aidan, soaking wet again. Mom helped me change sheets and I made him get back in bed. He complied and stayed in there for another hour or so. I trudged back to bed and fell fast asleep, waking to find a completely fed child contentedly reading books with Mimi. Yippee!
Got a nice long shower. So nice. So refreshing. So private.
Took off to Wal-mart and then my midwife appointment. Appointment went great. No cervical check, but good conversation and such. My group B strep test came back negative so that was good.
Ran home to check on things and make myself some lunch. Sat in silence. Uploaded pictures to blog.
Then I treated myself to some slow browsing of the aisles at Joann Fabrics and Hobby Lobby. I don't remember the last time I did that, but it was heavenly. I picked up a bunch of super cheap, super cute fabric remnants and some other crafty supplies and headed back to my mom's house.
We went to the Farmer's Market, then came home to eat our fresh veggies. Aidan had a few meltdowns at dinner.
Took Aidan to the park after dinner and then he was shipped off to bed early.
I decided to get my sewing machine out and try to finish a purse I am making. Being my very first sewing project, and being rather new at this whole thing, I had quite the time of it, but accomplished a few things before throwing my hands up in the air and calling it a night.
So, now I sit.... 254 days pregnant and still a very horrible seamstress. We will have to remedy both these things.
Goodnight.
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